-Taking it to the Filter-

“Looking at this made me realize that it doesn’t matter on the who’s or the what’s or where you’re from.

When I think of how I make it today – with or without the different meats.

It was always about the layers.

How one item is placed upon the top of the other.

How I can put things together to make one thing come out good.

Well, that if you like this short of pie.

But it made me think on how – as my spirituality grows – I can see the different layers one on top of the next and just as I can see today the different layers within my using that ended up being so very disastrous in the end.

What came from asking this one simple question to my friends and family had ended up once again making me look at the many layers of my life today, which make me who I am.

Where I’m going.

Who I end up by the end of the day.

There’s many recipes out there on about – well just about everything really.

But as I look at my life today.

Right now at this moment I can place in my bowl the many layers to make a good meal or place the items that I think it needs – which always turns sour most times anyways lift to mine own thinking.

But today, by adding in the items that will help me throughout the day and asking for help from God, from friends and family the many layers that have been passed down seems to work out just a little bit better than the day before.

So by the end of the day when I say, “Thanks” at night.

I can have a good tasting piece of the

Looking at this made me realize that it doesn’t matter on the who’s or the what’s or where you’re from.

When I think of how I make it today – with or without the different meats.

It was always about the layers.

How one item is placed upon the top of the other.

How I can put things together to make one thing come out good.

Well, that if you like this short of pie.

But it made me think on how – as my spirituality grows – I can see the different layers one on top of the next and just as I can see today the different layers within my using that ended up being so very disastrous in the end.

What came from asking this one simple question to my friends and family had ended up once again making me look at the many layers of my life today, which make me who I am.

Where I’m going.

Who I end up by the end of the day.

There’s many recipes out there on about – well just about everything really.

But as I look at my life today.

Right now at this moment I can place in my bowl the many layers to make a good meal or place the items that I think it needs – which always turns sour most times anyways lift to mine own thinking.

But today, by adding in the items that will help me throughout the day and asking for help from God, from friends and family the many layers that have been passed down seems to work out just a little bit better than the day before.

So by the end of the day when I say, “Thanks” at night.

I can have a good tasting piece of the Pie…”

“So that’s why you asked me if I wanted to be back here? You weren’t talking about these groups – but sitting in the back, right?”
“Well my young friend, if nothing changes – nothing changes and if that happens, I’ll be doing the same old – same old thing that got me here in the first place. Wouldn’t you agree?” I said to them.
“Yeah – and I ended up doing the same thing.”
“Well now you’re not – right?”
“Yeah.” They said to me.
“Are you going to sit down by me or was this just a big hoax to get me closer to the front?”
“Well, I don’t think you want to be sitting where I’m sitting.”
“Why- where’s that?” They asked – as I walk up to the front of the room and sit down at the chair table and introduce myself and told the group who and what I am, as I look over at my new friend, “So it’s not any surprise that I ended up back here. It Happened Before…”
-Talking to the Filter-

“When is it enough she said, slipping under the water’s edge?
To thine own self be true, as he cleaned out the spoon…”
-Taking it to the Filter-

beginning of a new story…

Schooled

Time has a way of showing us exactly what’s out there.

Exactly what’s on some one’s mind and it seems the older I get the exact nature of the way it’s supposed to be.

Regardless of how I feel about the situation, event or comment said by some else.

I’ve been schooled by some of the best it seems in my life as I had the opportunity to grow and – well I’m still breathing – so that’s something in itself.

As a young person my teachers where the ones around me, be it a parent, a sibling and as time went on small groups of children I hung with at school, to eventually older kids in the schools that I was attending, to even older groups of teachers as with the folks that I would end up working with and in and around my life to make a life.

It seemed at the time all was well, well – that and I ended up with a habit.

But showing me in the beginning, no – that took time.

The way things are supposed to be regardless if I showed up was something else entirely.

I could tell you that I saw the signs well before things in my life went south.

Or I could tell you that now being free for some time – I can look back and see the destruction, the chaos, the mayhem that I would do to myself and those around me when I was in my cups. Either way, time has a way of showing us, showing me just how it was or as a friend often tells me, “You’re crazy! You know that, right?” To which I would reply, “Ah, yah, I know!” then continue to do the same thing…

-Taking it to the Filter-

Pride leads the procession down the aisle.

Leading the way that rules Prides life.

Looking down at the end was Prides Bride.

So, so beautiful. So bright. So mine.

As Pride gets closer – passing the pews – the smiling faces of, The Wants, The Greed’s, and the Mores.

Taking that deep breath and fluffing out those peacock feathers so all could see.

“This is intoxicating!” Pride thinks.

“What excellence. What creature on this big green world wouldn’t want to be in Prides shoes?” He thinks to himself.

As Pride comes ever so closer to his Bride.

How proud Pride is knowing that this is it – this one next step – brings Pride standing side by side to the Bride.

“Why won’t Pride look at me?” The Bride thinks.

“Isn’t my self-esteem good enough?”

I see all these eyes upon us and that look of, “They so want to be me stare.”

Good the Bride thinks.

“Let them have their eyes of wants and greed.

Those eyes of fear and more.

They could’ve been here but I beat you all.”

Lifting their heads up to hearing.

“We are gathered here today, to see these two join together, a union unlike any other.

A beginning of a life full of unending causes.”

As the crowds of eyes stand watching the happy couple parade back down the aisle. “Look at them all.” Pride thinks.

“So full of want and greed.

So full of fear and more.

Good I‘ll take them all.”

As Pride looks on.

“Why won’t Pride look at me?”

“Even those of the crowd evade their eyes from me, what’s so wrong with me?

Haven’t I given Pride enough?” The Bride thinks.

– All the Kings Houses’ –