It’s been some time since I’ve written anything on this page, and for that – I’m sorry. I got caught up on what we like to call life. Needless to say. I’m back. Just got done doing some soul searching and found that I didn’t have to go far. It truly amazes me still that with all the looking for something greater than myself, all I had to do is just stop and turn around and God was there. I can’t explain it any other way than that.
I had a friend many years ago that stated she found her higher power after much searching due to being an atheist. She stated that she found her concept when she had a desire to use. Being at that crossroad of wanting to drink and knowing that it would cost her much once again.
Her idea can from that moment where we take that ‘pause’. That moment of fight or flight. That for her, God was in that ‘pause’. She has never looked again and stayed sober and clean for many years. I visit her once in a while now, not by her side sitting on a wicker chair. But by placing flowers upon her site and taking a moment to ‘pause and to say thanks for the lessons and the many laughs.
These are the lessons I continue to learn today. Take it one moment at a time and enjoy the journey and for what’s it worth, don’t forget to take a ‘pause’ every so often too.
-Before the Dawn-
from a few short words the pages start to come together.
coming by the end of Spring…God willing..!
My Spirituality is not the same as yesterday or the day before. It’s not the same a week ago or even five to ten years ago. Is constantly changing; it constantly changing due to the fact that I am not the same.
well I’m getting ready to have the publisher send out a new contract so I can get my newest book to the printers.
If you think you can’t – you can.!
“What a shame!” Folks would say.
“They’d have so much potential if they only changed.” Some would say.
But it’s not that easy to walk from that darkness and into the light.
Not when you are truly afraid – of that fear of change that may never come your way again.
It’s been said before, “How dark before the dawn”.
Oh, how true that is for folks like me when the darkness wants to hold on.
It will fight to stay alive, pushing out all hope that the light is really by our side.
When the darkness sees it’s end, it will dig its heels in.
Finding its way to corrupt our thinking, rearing its ugly head to pull us back down.
When all else is said, and done, it’s the darkness that is afraid of the light and only light can push back those moments of flight.
Those thoughts that we’re not good enough, smart enough or even strong enough to look or even walk towards the light.
Morning will come as with every new day – if the darkness held on, nothing would change.
The Powers that be can be our judges and our juries.
We all have some light that pushes out the dark if we feed that side of those overwhelming frights.
To turn towards the new day making small changes that will help us face those dark moment – that darkness that will not last with faith of a new day.
A new way to help me, help us, see to a better future and not to forget the past, that darkness within – but by accepting what was and moving towards forgiveness from others, for others and ourselves.
For when the darkness comes, we can all see that little flicker of light – we can all have that new Power that has been there all along in helping us push back that madness, that darkness, that feeling of fright.
So, it is with faith today and with some trust and with much hope that a new day will come to us all, when darkness succumbs By the Light…
-Taking it to the Filter-
Well folks, I’ve been very fortunate to have written and have published over 100 short stories on or around recovery and beyond.
But as of today, I’ve written my first wedding ceremony.
Very blessed. If you think you can’t. You can.!! #alwayswatching