It’s been some time since I’ve written anything on this page, and for that – I’m sorry. I got caught up on what we like to call life. Needless to say. I’m back. Just got done doing some soul searching and found that I didn’t have to go far. It truly amazes me still that with all the looking for something greater than myself, all I had to do is just stop and turn around and God was there. I can’t explain it any other way than that.
I had a friend many years ago that stated she found her higher power after much searching due to being an atheist. She stated that she found her concept when she had a desire to use. Being at that crossroad of wanting to drink and knowing that it would cost her much once again.
Her idea can from that moment where we take that ‘pause’. That moment of fight or flight. That for her, God was in that ‘pause’. She has never looked again and stayed sober and clean for many years. I visit her once in a while now, not by her side sitting on a wicker chair. But by placing flowers upon her site and taking a moment to ‘pause and to say thanks for the lessons and the many laughs.
These are the lessons I continue to learn today. Take it one moment at a time and enjoy the journey and for what’s it worth, don’t forget to take a ‘pause’ every so often too.
-Before the Dawn-
from a few short words the pages start to come together.
coming by the end of Spring…God willing..!
My Spirituality is not the same as yesterday or the day before. It’s not the same a week ago or even five to ten years ago. Is constantly changing; it constantly changing due to the fact that I am not the same.
well I’m getting ready to have the publisher send out a new contract so I can get my newest book to the printers.
If you think you can’t – you can.!
Well folks, I’ve been very fortunate to have written and have published over 100 short stories on or around recovery and beyond.
But as of today, I’ve written my first wedding ceremony.
Very blessed. If you think you can’t. You can.!! #alwayswatching
Well folks, my manuscript “Taking it to the Filter” is in the editing process and in Gods hands now. Once that’s done – off to the publisher, hopeful by spring I’ll have that one on the shelves too. Don’t forget you can still get my other books either ordering online or if you’re around Nashua at Annie’s Book Stop. Now onto my next project – it’s gonna be fun seeing where this goes…
So, in the end, well the end of each day.
I try my best to go over those moments that gave me reprieve and ask God to help me with those that are not so good.
Learning to accept.
Learning to let go.
Learning to laugh to leaning to love.
To learning to be free.
Free from that all or nothing attitude that can make me take anything that I do to that bitter end, right to that filter.
My friend would often laugh and just say, “Be good where you’re at or move!”
That man I learned what it meant to him on their bitter endings.
To those that I would be asking for help today for a better tomorrow.
To being blessed on passing the message of hope to those that haven’t found that shores of a better life and to thanking God each and every day I’m alive, that I don’t have to take anything to the end like I did before.
When I can pause, and be open, be mindful and be free.
From that self-appointed prison on how I lived in the past and how I hope to do better in the future on how I – on how we, can handle those changes, to those moment that take me,
that can take us, to the endings of The Filter…