By the Light

“What a shame!” Folks would say.

“They’d have so much potential if they only changed.” Some would say.

But it’s not that easy to walk from that darkness and into the light.

Not when you are truly afraid – of that fear of change that may never come your way again.

It’s been said before, “How dark before the dawn”.

Oh, how true that is for folks like me when the darkness wants to hold on.

It will fight to stay alive, pushing out all hope that the light is really by our side.

When the darkness sees it’s end, it will dig its heels in.

Finding its way to corrupt our thinking, rearing its ugly head to pull us back down.

When all else is said, and done, it’s the darkness that is afraid of the light and only light can push back those moments of flight.

Those thoughts that we’re not good enough, smart enough or even strong enough to look or even walk towards the light.

Morning will come as with every new day – if the darkness held on, nothing would change.

The Powers that be can be our judges and our juries.

We all have some light that pushes out the dark if we feed that side of those overwhelming frights.

To turn towards the new day making small changes that will help us face those dark moment – that darkness that will not last with faith of a new day.

A new way to help me, help us, see to a better future and not to forget the past, that darkness within – but by accepting what was and moving towards forgiveness from others, for others and ourselves.

For when the darkness comes, we can all see that little flicker of light – we can all have that new Power that has been there all along in helping us push back that madness, that darkness, that feeling of fright.

So, it is with faith today and with some trust and with much hope that a new day will come to us all, when darkness succumbs By the Light…

-Taking it to the Filter-

Very blessed.

Well folks, I’ve been very fortunate to have written and have published over 100 short stories on or around recovery and beyond.

But as of today, I’ve written my first wedding ceremony.

Very blessed. If you think you can’t. You can.!! #alwayswatching

it’s coming..!

all most done folks…

Well now that, “Taking it” is off to the editor and soon to go to the publisher I seem to have more stories to write, here’s to the very beginning of the next one with short stories..

 

next new roads..

Well folks, my manuscript “Taking it to the Filter” is in the editing process and in Gods hands now. Once that’s done – off to the publisher, hopeful by spring I’ll have that one on the shelves too. Don’t forget you can still get my other books either ordering online or if you’re around Nashua at Annie’s Book Stop. Now onto my next project – it’s gonna be fun seeing where this goes…

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filter

So, in the end, well the end of each day.

I try my best to go over those moments that gave me reprieve and ask God to help me with those that are not so good.

Learning to accept.

Learning to let go.

Learning to laugh to leaning to love.

To learning to be free.

Free from that all or nothing attitude that can make me take anything that I do to that bitter end, right to that filter.

My friend would often laugh and just say, “Be good where you’re at or move!”

That man I learned what it meant to him on their bitter endings.

To those that I would be asking for help today for a better tomorrow.

To being blessed on passing the message of hope to those that haven’t found that shores of a better life and to thanking God each and every day I’m alive, that I don’t have to take anything to the end like I did before.

When I can pause, and be open, be mindful and be free.

From that self-appointed prison on how I lived in the past and how I hope to do better in the future on how I – on how we, can handle those changes, to those moment that take me,

that can take us, to the endings of The Filter…

The rest will come

“When asking for help and the element that I’m changing every day.
Not to appease anyone.
I think of the phrase, ‘To thine own self be true.’

Now there’s some words.

That’s all I can do today is stay as truthful as I can and that comes with a ton of willingness that I for one can fall short of, on a daily basis.

But that’s the point isn’t it?

To try,

To move forward,

To be true – be true to one self. The rest will come in time.
With God’s help this has been true in my life.

Will, at least with the part of me trying to be more willing and falling short and trying to stay open, and to – oh ya, most everything that can pull me into that tailspin that will keep me from looking at those things that have been a driving force in my life.

The only difference today is that that driving force isn’t driving me off a cliff but driving me to do better than I did the day before, hell even a few minutes before.

So I’ll continue to pray for myself so that I’ll stay willing to pray for those that come into my life and show me with their actions, their fork tongues, their way of seeing life and others poorly just to make themselves feel today and so that I may reflect and be reminded that I, and only I with God’s help can change the person that I was to the person that God always wanted me to be.
To thine own self, be true.”

-Taking it to the Filter-

just because

“Just because we feel alone, doesn’t always mean we’re alone in a crowded room full of people. But being lonely and alone in a room full of people, now that can feel crowded…”
-Taking it to the Filter-

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